I round the corner to come down the hall and see you standing there. You’re not even looking in my direction. Your right hand? A deep red, leather, paddle.
Your other hand holds my collar.
I feel the strangest mix of adrenaline, anxiousness, anticipation, excitement… all at once. The collar is my happy place with you, but I know too that I need to check my mental space, make sure I’m right with my role in the moment, and for the rest of this time together.