B is for Breathe

The past year has been chaotic. Highs followed by lows with uncertainty sprinkled around for good measure.

There was little time to do more than react during quite a bit of it. And then nothing which was almost worse because the lack of movement showed the cracks that had been created in relationships.

Snake and I weathered through the chaos that was not of our making. At times with grace and other times with a lot of frustration and anger. But in the end, we knew we couldn’t fix the problems because they weren’t ours to fix.

So, we are moving forward. And that always sounds so fatalistic. But, the one thing that has come from this is that we know where our base and strength is and that we want to explore more and enjoy the life that is ours.

I wish I could be the person who can meditate. Or journal. They don’t work for me. I need to push things to the back of my brain and let them simmer and sort themselves out little by little. Quite often there aren’t even words for the feelings. The bits need time to come together into a cohesive thing that I can see and then deal with.

We are in the “after,” now. There’s still drama, but we’ve chosen to stand apart from it and allow them to handle it on their own. It won’t be easy or pretty, but it’s a boundary that had to be set. So, step one?

Give yourself permission to take time to breathe, to live life, to give, to love, to reflect, to be present,

And to just be

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And while we breathe and live, we will find the “next,” but we have time. For now, it’s time to just be.