I don’t tend to think of myself as a terribly courageous person. Not in a self-deprecating way, but more just as a I just do what I need to do and move on.
When we’ve told people about places that we’ve been or things that we’ve done, Snake and I get a lot of “Oh, I could never do that.” The funny thing is, for us, the opposite is true.
My dad ended up never getting to Glacier National Park or Alaska because my mom had an irrational fear of bears. I have no idea where it came from, but she was terrified about being attacked by one. Of course, he never would have gone and made her uncomfortable so he put his dream aside.
Snake’s mom had Lupus and all of the things that planned for retirement couldn’t happen because by that point she wasn’t physically able to do those things.
We made a pact early in our marriage that unless there was a real reason to put things off, we would do them. We aren’t crazy and in debt, and we plan for our adventures, but those plans make the in-between times easier to handle.
I’m much more afraid of having regrets about not getting to do things than I am of stepping off a platform to go on a zip-line. Getting lost in the middle of a bad section of New York City was terrifying, but it’s still one of the stories that gets told over and over again.
Yes, exploring D/s and all of the ins and outs of TTWD can be scary. On the other hand, looking at each other and wondering who they are in 30 years seems pretty terrifying to me too. Changing together is hard, but the adventures make us better partners and people.
It would be easier to never venture out online again after being disposed of like an old book. It also would make me feel like I was accepting that role and then I am losing out on all of the other people who are out there and appreciate me.
So, I guess our courage is keeping on. The obstacles are there, but trying to keep an eye on the horizon gives us hope.
Rain it pours, rain it poursCourage by P!nk
It’s pouring on me
The rain it falls, rain it falls
Sowing the seeds of love and hope, love and hope
We don’t have to stay, stuck in the weeds