I still find myself dismayed and surprised by the mechanics of pain. I’m not a full-on masochist… I don’t think (Charmer may think otherwise) but I have found that once I get past that initial bit starting off, things change. It sounds almost, well, mental at times.
I mean, how can a hurt feel differently over a very short time? I get the biology of it all. I understand about all of that logically, but I still get surprised by it all. At the start, incredibly difficult to tolerate. After only a bit, I seek it out.
I have not perfected this by any stretch, and I still have to fight to stay a bit “present” because otherwise I could imagine tripping over the edge and getting more injured than hurt (to me, there’s a difference).
I’m not crazy. I’m not bonkers. I will say that it’s all very intriguing. Here’s a look at part of the art of pain – about 1/3 of it in this case. Knees to neck, what a strange, bizarre ride.